SOLACE

"These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there’s just too much that time cannot erase… I have tried so hard to tell myself you are gone, but though you are still with me, I have been alone all along" “ My immortal” by evanescence     MY BEAUTIFUL PAIN “I looked at her beautiful face... She smiled, never saying anything and with not even a whisper, not even a word, she was gone” I live to see her face at night… I anticipate; I get to see her smile at me once again. The nightmare I love to have… her face haunts my once pleasant dreams and her voice in my head has chased away all the sanity in me” My beautiful Nightmare. She left me… My mother was gone, she was supposed to be my immortal, she was too perfect, how do I stop feeling this pain, where do I go from here. I’m only a teenage girl in a world of temptations, how do I take care of myself…having never experienced this in my life, I was lost and till today I am still lost. At 16, I’m jus

THE HATEFUL REFLECTION I LOVE SO MUCH.. It's like I'm 8yrs old again and my cousin Pamela invites a friend of hers to our house.. I open the gate..immediately her friend sets eyes on me she goes 'hmm Pamela, when this kid grows up, girls would crawl at his feet' and she laughed. I'm not going to lie you, that felt  good ...fast forward.. Now I am 11yrs old and I begin to understand the society we live in.. The most Poignant truth about society is " the bad will thrive " . I had so much proof just around me to ascertain that truth, and when I say enough proof, I mean right in front of my nose. Growing up, i realized the good ones  are forgotten and irrelevant. No I ain't about be irrelevant... I will never be irrelevant. Well, they say be careful what you wish for, don't they? No doubt the universe heard me and answered my prayers, all the tools needed to thrive in this society of ours, I developed them... Make no mistakes, I am talking about the t

DEPRESSED BUT NOT DEFEATED "I felt the walls close in on me, my soul slowly embracing darkness, I was drowning in my fears. Nobody understood what I was going through; my friends drifted apart,they said I was mad. My family believed with time I would get better; little did they know that with each breath I took, I was dying inside. I could not process my thoughts; I forgot my purpose, I lost any sense of belonging. But the one thing I was sure of, was I became a stranger  in my own body" Anonymous Searching for happiness came with its own baggage. When my main purpose in life is to achieve,  I expected perfection and I did not make reservations for the " what ifs".  I refused to acknowledge and be realistic about life,and this led me to this darkness called Depression When we feel a little low or sad, we don't  consider it as depression.  Honey let me tell you something; that's definitely a start and that's when you have to rein it in befo

Welcome To SOLACE "Life has a way of wearing you down, but you are stronger than the constraints demanded." Blackbird poetry  This blog is for the broken, the depressed, the raw, the condemned, the quirky ones. Not here to scratch the surface, let us go deep. Let's talk about your nightmares,what makes you numb, what keeps you up at night, what makes you voiceless..talk about those tears you shed when no one is looking. I'm not going to sugar coat anything. Get to understand, real life "demons" people deal with and why not share your own story.This is where we talk UNFILTERED.